STAY IN TOUCH

This weekend I was at my boyfriend’s family’s cottage with Jesse, Anette, Janina, Lotta-Sofia, Teemu¸ Sami and Joonas. There was also some other guys at Saturday night, but that’s the “crew” we went there with. We left from Helsinki on Friday at 6 pm and were there around eight. We didn’t do much that day, just ate and watched one movie and went sleep.

Saturday was lot of fun. First we woke up around 12 pm and did our morning things and when we were ready, sorry, when the girls were ready we went to the city. Girls and guys separated right away when we get there and we went to shopping some clothes. I bought new shirts, jeans and some jewelry. Also movies (Ice age 3, Year One and Public Enemies) and loooots of candy and stuff. I spent almost 100€ and I still need to buy clothes to the school’s Christmas party, I haven’t decided what I’m gonna wear. We were at the city about five hours and then went back to the cottage. We made food, watched movies and had fun. Then some of my bf’s cousins came and brought us some soft drinks. We drunk and were out until 3 am and then went sleep.

We left from there today around four p.m and were back home around 6. There’s still two weeks school and then I leave at Friday or Saturday to U.K to my dad’s. Can’t wait to get to London and go shopping with Brit. I’ve missed her so much <3

xx !i$$a

Fuck this weekend. I was sick for two weeks, stupid swine flu. So, when I felt better on Friday, I went out to party. I had been four weeks without any alcohol, it was about time. Frankly, I got really really drunk. Both days, Friday and Saturday. Friday was okay, nothing big happened. Well how could I know, can’t remember anything. But I think I had fun, you see, when I woke up Saturday, first thing I saw was our front door. I’m guessing I came home, opened the front door, came inside, started to took my shoes off and apparently fell asleep.

Saturday. I woke up first time at nine. Stumbled to my own room and fell back asleep. Then woke up at 4.15 P.M. I had 14 missed calls, 4 from Janina, 5 from Jesse, 3 from Leevi and two from Sami. Also one txt message from Jesse, saying to call me when I get it. So I called and it went like “hi, how are you? i’m okay, nothing big. Okay, bye.” So, Jesse was the weekend at his parent’s, so I kinda didn’t have to worry that he would somehow know about me being drunk as a skunk.

Around six p.m I was drunk, again. Everything is such a blur from ten p.m. I had no image Sunday morning what I had done last night, but thanks to all my friends I was quickly updated about everything I had done. So, around 3 am I had called to my boyfriend. He doesn’t like at all that I party so much. And actually, since I started to date him, I haven’t drink that much and haven’t been as drunk that I would lose my memory. Except for now. I wasn’t informed about our converstation on the phone, but it didn’t last long. I read my text messages from that night and there was some messages that cleared something out a bit.

Sent 03:34
you don’t own me. i can do whatever i want cause i don’t care one a bit what you think about it

Received 03:37
i know that. but you can’t go to your old ways everytime i’m out of town.

Sent 03:41
what fucking old ways?

Received 03:42
drink and party like there’s no tomorrow.

Sent 03:58
well you never know if there really even isn’t tomorrow. ugh whatever. i’m done. don’t call me, text me, anything. i kinda hate you right now.

Received 04:01
fine. let’s talk when you’re sober.

Yeah, i don’t even know why I said I kinda hate him right now, cause he didn’t say anything, but that’s just me. He’s kinda trying to chance who I am and I won’t let that happen. Around 6 am, before I went to sleep, I had texted him, telling how I don’t know if I even like him and how I still miss&love my ex boyfriend, which is true, and that he wouldn’t be such a bitch about me partying and that he wouldn’t even care. His answer was that maybe we should then take a break and that I should clear my problems. And I got soo mad about him saying I had problems, and sent him a pretty horrible message back. So now I’m not so sure if I still have boyfriend or not.

Yesterday my hangover was such a hell and I decided to get drunk again. I was almost 72 hours drunk. And yesterday was Big Brother talk show where I had tickets and of course I went there though I wasn’t feeling so good, but I said that I would be there when Toni gets eliminated and I was. And because yesterday’s drinking, I wasn’t at school today. Tomorrow I need to go or my mom won’t ever again leave me with Leevi alone.

Some people may say I have problems with drinking or that I’m some kind of alcoholic, but they’re wrong. I can stop drinking on time and I don’t have to drink every weekend, but I’m young and I do what I want. That’s just me. Say what you want, I don’t care.

1. Seurusteletko kolmen päivän päästä? - saattaa olla että en, huonolla tuurilla niin käy.
2. Poltatko tupakkaa? - valitettavasti
3. Poltatko ruohoa? - en
4. Arvosteletko ihmisiä? - kyllä
5. Oletko naimisissa? - en
6. Onko olemassa joku joka ei pidä sinusta jonkin asian takia jota et edes tehnyt?-  On, montakin henkilöä
7. Kaipaatko jotakuta - todellakin <3
8. Luuletko että hänkin kaipaa sinua? - mitä oon kuullut, niin juu
9. Puhutko vielä joskus hänelle? - Jos mitään kauheata ei tapahdu, niin tosiaankin
10. Onko sinulla kavereita? - Juu
11. Pidätkö tällä hetkellä kenestäkään? - Kyllä
12. Oletko suudellut ketään huulille viimeisen 24 tunnin aikana? Ai ketä? - en ole
13. Tykkäätkö halailla? - joo
14. Nimikirjaimesi? - M.T
15. Rakastatko jotakuta? - Rakastan
16. Minkä yhden asian olet tänä vuonna oppinut? - Et en todellakaan ala muuttumaan jonkun muun takia
17. Tuletko toimeen vanhempiesi kanssa? - Juu
18. Kenen sängys nukuit viimeyönä? - Taisin taas nukkua eteisen lattialla
19. Viimeisin asia jonka takia itkit? - Ehkä ex poikaystävän
20. Itketkö helposti? - en
21. Onko sinulla sisaruksia? - juu, hieman liikaakin. : D ei läppä
22. Missä haluat asua vanhempana? - Mielellään siellä missä synnyin, eli Kaliforniassa tai sitten New Yorkissa. Milanokin ois ihan mukava tai Lontoo
23. Mihin aikaan heräsit tänään? - Tais olla kolmen aikaan. Päivällä siis
24. Tämän hetkinen huoli? - Se että onko mulla enää poikaystävää vai ei
25. Minne haluaisit mennä? - En oikeestaan minnekään
26. Viimeinen asia jonka teet ennen nukkumaanmenoa? - Tekstaan Janskulle hyvät yöt :D
27. Palatko vai rusketutko? - Rusketun, mut joskus palan myös
28. Viimeisin asia jolle nauroit? - Ku katoin BB extraa
29. Milloin viimeksi suutuit? - Eilen
30. Mitä luultavasti tekisit nyt jos et olisi koneella ? - Makaisin sohvalla ja kahtoisin telkkaria. Ja mässyttäisin mäkkiruokaa ja karkrkia
31. Juna vai laiva? - lentokone :)))
32. Kuka soitti sinulle viimeksi? - Jansku
33. Mitä ajattelit viime yönä ennen kuin nukahdit? - Ei siis yhtään mitään käsitystä
34. Mitä meinaat viikonloppuna? - partyparty. kunnon perseet
35. Onko suurin osa ystävistäsi/kavereistasi varattuja vai sinkkuja? - sinkkuja
36. Aterioitko usein pikaruokaravintoloissa? - liikaa
37. Saatko hiuksesi helposti sellaisiksi kun ne haluatkin? - just saisinkin
38. Entä oletko koskaan ollut OIKEASTI rakastunut? - olen

39. Mitä mieltä olet existä? - oon edelleen väleissä omieni kanssa.
40. Ketä halasit viimeksi? Milloin? - Leeviä tänään

Last week began new period in school and the schedule looks nice. Days are long, expect Friday is only three hours, thanks to my finnish 2 class and optional subjects, which i have on Monday and Wendesday.

Friday we went to Ruttis with some friends, but Janina and I had to leave early, because Leevi was too lazy to come pick us up later, so we continued our evening with big brother at my house.

I didn’t have hangover on Saturday, so Jesse came around one p.m and we went to Kamppi(one of the malls in Helsinki). I dragged the poor boy to the clothes shops with me, I finally had money to buy something, however, I didn’t find anything I liked. Well, at least I didn’t use money. We went to Jesse’s house trough grocery store and bought two films, Confessions o f Shopaholic and Saw 5. I tried to cook for us because of Jesse’s broken finger, but nothing came of it and Jesse had to do it. I diid something, put plates and stuff on the table… Okay, there’s nothing to praise about.

Then we watched Confessions of a Shopaholic and ate too much candy and stuff. I ate, but Jesse could eat what ever he’d wanted to and how much he ever wanted to, but he wouldn’t get fat. It’s unfair. Then couple of Jesse’s friends came over and I went to the “bedroom”, although I could still hear their superfluous convos, because the bedroom is in the same room with living room. Luckily they left soon and we went back to watching movies.

Yesterday I went to my boyfriend’s place after my work. We went to hung out to kamppi with some other friends and were back about 9.30pm. We watched big brother, I mean I watched and Jesse complained next to me how stupid you need to be to go to the BB house. It was hilarious.

Jesse promised he would drop me off to work today, so we woke up around seven, I thought I could do my make up, hairs and put clothes on and eat in 30 minutes, but I didn’t. Probably I would have if I wouldn’t have been so clumsy and spill coffee into my lap. Of course I didn’t have other jeans with me, so I have to put Jesse’s jeans. I had to hold them up so they wouldn’t fall. He’s skinny but he has wider waist than I have. I was late from work about 30 minutes…

Jesse came to  get me from work and we went to eat to McDonald’s. He needed to go to school at three, so I went home. I need to clean tomorrow, it’s my turn, so no partying tomorrow. But Saturday I will go drinking with someone.

OHMYGOSH YES! last working day tomorrow. no more those little evil kids next week. Now it’s 100% sure that i WON’T get a job where I need to be with little kids.

bytheway, i love the damned video :) <3